What Purpose?

Do you ever find yourself questioning what your purpose is? To live for Him wholly and without any distraction, yet everyday life seems empty? What do I know? This is a sea of vanity, a empty shell of a world, where people continue on in their pursuit of everything that satisfies the self. It holds no satisfaction for me. I loath the self that consumes the fruit of this world.

At the same time, we are all in a time and place where things must be done, jobs, responsibilities, caring for one another, cleaning out the dust from our homes and hearts, a huge list of activity. And some of those things bring stress, even life changing pressure. How I want more faith now. That the fervent fire would attract my heart like nothing else. Even in this world of performance, where man judges based upon the scales of man. The faulty ruler that measures this world.

I want more of the life inside that is perfect. That life no man can measure up to. Be it intellectually, or in personality. By commitment or love. No human scale can be applied to that life. I need more, more now. I am not smart enough. I can not sing, play, converse, or communicate well enough in myself. Even to fall into that place where we judge ourselves, our broken flesh, our imperfect soul.

I want to be free of all measures, of all restraint. More of that life! More of that fire. It consumes every construction of man. All of our gauges and concepts are destroyed by that life. He is good. He is perfectly brilliant. Am I as smart as Einstein? The life inside of me infinitely surpasses that human concept. Can I climb the highest mountain? The life inside of me is connected to the Heavens, far above this Earth. Can I make music which soothes the weary and pleases all who hear? The life inside of me worships with perfection!

More life today Lord, I need to be free of man's measure. I need to see past my own illusions, my own self judgement. Forgive me for entertaining these measures, lead me on to more life.